Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground. - Rumi

Monday, September 19, 2016

Surrender



Surrender

what does this word even mean?

I think it became a word for me when I realized I had to let go of all control I had....about many things in my life...that I could no more control the Sun that shines or the wind that blows...that in the time space continuum where I reside in order to grow
I had to surrender,
it's powerful to let go
it's powerful to release those things that no longer serve
and be open to what will be created 
I had to surrender what was no longer serving me
I think surrender means letting go of the power 
I was using to hold on to something that no longer served me...
and this is the story...

A year ago, this time I had to let go of the way I styled my hair. Not a biggie to some, but for me an mixed race woman with kinky curly hair huge.  Through Instagram I had learned about an internet based business called the giving keys.  You could get a key with a word on it.
I chose surrender- because if something is not working in ones life, one must have the strength to SURRENDER to the change.  Difficult- I was upset, angry, damaged.
But I FOUND my way out.  I let go and slowly but surely embraced the change 'cause more were coming.  I tried all kinds of hair stuff, found someone who liked working with natural hair and MADE PEACE with what was.
As I went through the process of SURRENDERING and making peace I FORGAVE her and realized the relationship was like one of siblings and as I forgave her, I forgave my sister because that was who she r minded me of......odd but true.
She had damaged my scalp quite badly.  She damaged me personally because of the trust I had in her as a friend, but I walked away.

I healed myself...I walked toward my authentic self and becoming who I am meant to be...SURRENDER TO THE TRUTH OF WHO I AM a mixed race woman with kinky hair, kinda wild, wild like the essence of me.

A journey always begins someplace.

And now A YEAR LATER.....I understand what surrender means and see other areas of my life where I continue to be working on SURRENDERING.


Surrender

what does this word even mean?

I think it became a word for me when I realized I had to let go of all control I had....about many things in my life...that I could no more control the Sun that shines or the wind that blows...that in the time space continuum where I reside in order to grow
I had to surrender,
it's powerful to let go
it's powerful to release those things that no longer serve
and be open to what will be created 
I had to surrender what was no longer serving me
I think surrender means letting go of the power 
I was using to hold on to something that no longer served me...
and this is the story...

A year ago, this time I had to let go of the way I styled my hair. Not a biggie to some, but for me an mixed race woman with kinky curly hair huge.  Through Instagram I had learned about an internet based business called the giving keys.  You could get a key with a word on it.
I chose surrender- because if something is not working in ones life, one must have the strength to SURRENDER to the change.  Difficult- I was upset, angry, damaged.
But I FOUND my way out.  I let go and slowly but surely embraced the change 'cause more were coming.  I tried all kinds of hair stuff, found someone who liked working with natural hair and MADE PEACE with what was.
As I went through the process of SURRENDERING and making peace I FORGAVE her and realized the relationship was like one of siblings and as I forgave her, I forgave my sister because that was who she r minded me of......odd but true.
She had damaged my scalp quite badly.  She damaged me personally because of the trust I had in her as a friend, but I walked away.

I healed myself...I walked toward my authentic self and becoming who I am meant to be...SURRENDER TO THE TRUTH OF WHO I AM a mixed race woman with kinky hair, kinda wild, wild like the essence of me.

A journey always begins someplace.

And now A YEAR LATER.....I understand what surrender means and see other areas of my life where I continue to be working on SURRENDERING.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Goddess woman




Photos taken at the Huntington Library


Goddess woman


Wild, feral, untamed
I am connected to both the Earth and the Divine Consciousness of the Universe....
The light in my soul is spilling out...
I cannot contain my joy, my love, my essence of pure ecstatic happiness to be here- now.

I am as old as dirt
I am as new as the sun that rises everyday
I access the wisdom of my soul
I am she who sees by feeling
I am Goddess
Sacred yoni
I have been broken
I have been in the darkness and emerged into the light
I understand the balance – to be light one must go into darkness..
To be in darkness one must have light to see...
I am the mother of mothers –
My ability to nurture has no boundaries

There are these passages of time where once the motion/action of life begins it cannot be stopped. It was written in time before it began that this is where I will meet and remember who I am.
This is were I will remember who I am:

I am goddess
I am light
I am love
I bless my body
I bless everyone who who crosses my path
I bless the beauty of life
I bless the beauty of the little souls that I am here to guide
I bless the soul of the man who makes me feel good
I bless sacred space
I know that where I am God and goddess are-
I know that the healing abilities I have are activated
And I surrender
I surrender to the beauty and joy and love that are who I am…..
Divine feminine consciousness
Walking my path on this planet