what does this word even mean?
I think it became a word for me when I realized I had to let go of all control I had....about many things in my life...that I could no more control the Sun that shines or the wind that blows...that in the time space continuum where I reside in order to grow
I had to surrender,
it's powerful to let go
it's powerful to release those things that no longer serve
and be open to what will be created
I had to surrender what was no longer serving me
I think surrender means letting go of the power
I was using to hold on to something that no longer served me...
and this is the story...
A year ago, this time I had to let go of the way I styled my hair. Not a biggie to some, but for me an mixed race woman with kinky curly hair huge. Through Instagram I had learned about an internet based business called the giving keys. You could get a key with a word on it.
I chose surrender- because if something is not working in ones life, one must have the strength to SURRENDER to the change. Difficult- I was upset, angry, damaged.
But I FOUND my way out. I let go and slowly but surely embraced the change 'cause more were coming. I tried all kinds of hair stuff, found someone who liked working with natural hair and MADE PEACE with what was.
As I went through the process of SURRENDERING and making peace I FORGAVE her and realized the relationship was like one of siblings and as I forgave her, I forgave my sister because that was who she r minded me of......odd but true.
She had damaged my scalp quite badly. She damaged me personally because of the trust I had in her as a friend, but I walked away.
I healed myself...I walked toward my authentic self and becoming who I am meant to be...SURRENDER TO THE TRUTH OF WHO I AM a mixed race woman with kinky hair, kinda wild, wild like the essence of me.
A journey always begins someplace.
And now A YEAR LATER.....I understand what surrender means and see other areas of my life where I continue to be working on SURRENDERING.