Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground. - Rumi

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

I feel you…

I feel you…
I feel the heat of your body,
of your kundalini energy rising. 
As we connect and go deeper in trust and connecting, 
I feel you,
I feel your soul, 
as I let you in,
As you let me in…
I feel the dance of yin and yang
Male and female, old as time
I feel you releasing your life energy with mine.

and I am happy.  


Sunday, May 21, 2017

My Top Five ---

My top five ---

My top fives…I haven’t thought about this in a long time.  Maybe I did this a few years ago.  (I looked, I didn't.  But remember a movie Chris Rock did, think called Top Five? Not sure, but here goes....

Number one:    Deva Premal and Miten.  I love this music.  These singers lift my heart and soul up so high I can withstand all the shit that I deal with on the physical plane.  The Gayatri Mantra, the Moola Mantra, Gate Gate. The list can go on.  This music got me through so many challenges.  I play it at night when I awake and have stuff on my mind.  It puts me back to sleep.

Number two:  Love.  Love gets me through.  Remembering that I am love and that I need search no further than myself to feel love.  Also that if I remember to be true to myself it is all going to work out.  That love is always the answer.  Even when it doesn’t look like it and especially when it doesn’t look like it.  I try to start my day with love on the brain.  By realizing that everyone has a basic need to be loved. And especially people that hurt me or others really need to be sent healing love.  And to do that means to take a high road.  The high road of love. 

Number three:  Protein shakes.  I love and live on protein shakes.
Chocolate and peanut butter and almond milk and bananas.  Green shakes are just as good.  I love and have an affinity for these.  I am on the move.  As a teacher I am not able to sit and have a meal where I am comfortable like at home.  I am constantly moving, so a shake goes down, gives me the protein my body needs and I am good to go.

Number four:  Shopping on the internet.  I love putting things in a shopping cart.   I love shopping for dresses with the backs out.  I love back out dresses.  Especially knit ones, and I have learned that I am a medium.  Otherwise I swim in the dresses.  So yeah, love shopping my favorite sites are Revolve and Shopbop.  Especially when they have a sale.  So I am constantly watching.  I love Beyond yoga for sweatshirt like coverings….and they are not cheap.  I am always trying to get a coupon for a discount off.

Number five:  Birkenstocks.  I love Birkenstocks.  I own five pairs that I rotate during the summer.  Pink, orange, black, silver and rose gold.  They are good for my feet, comfortable, kinda hippy, cool and I have actually worn them since college.  My first pair of Madrid’s were cherry red bright, happy looking.  I loved them.  Maybe they are a symbol of the freedom,  I was free from the shackles of the drama of my family when I left home and went away to college, I have not looked back.

 I am happiest in my Birkies.  I need a blue pair tho….

These sorts of lists are a humorous reminder...of being present, thinking about our life, me thinking about my life and really being in the moment.

What is your Top Five?

I Aspire to Give, to be a Giver

At the beginning of the day.
While I am driving to work.
When I stop and think about my 
contributions to the world,
these are the words that I aspire to.
To be a giver.
To give and not worry about receiving.
To let the universe take care of me
and know that I am good.  
That by virtue of remembering these thoughts
I am good.


Saturday, May 20, 2017

The Magic... the Connection, the Mantra

The Magic... the Connection, the Mantra

It is such a beautiful thing when we collide with another human in an intimate dance of intertwining bodies….
I become you, you become me…. the sweet surrender of myself to you.
Yin and Yang, male and female, life balance, harmony.
The Gayatri mantra plays in the background a soul connection, life forces meld and heal…the sweetness, the transcendence of life into another realm called heaven….
This is a gift.   This experience is a gift.  A present. 
I know that when this happens so much is at play in the universe. 
Time – space - a divine appointment perhaps a past life connection.  
It is a chance meeting.   And the magic happens as our souls call to each other and dance…my breath – your breath – one breath. 

A gift, the magic, the connection, the mantra…..the night, the moon, the beauty of divine life…heaven…light…joy….

Monday, May 8, 2017

**On the topic of men

On the topic of men

I speak from a place of being heterosexual.  My preference is men.  It always has been.  And I am thinking of the ones who have chosen me/I chose them to be in relationship with.
Why me?  What is it about me that they were attracted to?  After the physical-cality,
they like my sweetness, my easy disposition….they like the healing quality of my energy, they like the easiness of my personality.

I tend towards men who are smart and geeky.  I like men who make me laugh.   I have tended towards “bad boy” types, men who are strong alpha types. 

I think that men need women more than women need men.  That is a big statement.
Just my personal opinion of observing my ex-husband and other men I know.  Men have more of a need to be taken care of.  And yet there are those guys that have never been married who are straight.  What about them?  Are they damaged from stuff in childhood? Or haven’t met the right woman?

What is it that we need from each other?  Why were we put on the planet?
Well that is to procreate and keep the species going for one.  And many years ago our gender roles were very specific.
They aren’t so much anymore.  We have learned that gender is not a strong variable in intelligence, creativity and all the other factors of being human.
I do think that there is so much hype about what a man is, does and how he behaves that it is overwhelming for them. 
And then I go back to the thought of they were once all little boys.  Who were hopefully loved and guided to be strong, wonderful men.  Not so with my ex.  While he was given many material things, he was not given direction emotionally on how to be a better person, let along a man.  As it is, his sons don’t consider him in their top five.   Or return his calls or seek him out.  So the kind of man he is, is not the kind of man they will be. 
I feel sad for him that he doesn’t realize how he has lost the opportunity to be a part of their lives in a strong positive way.  He was too busy fighting his own shit to realize there was an opportunity for him to rise up and just be there for them.  Putting his own shit aside.  So I see the man he is now.  Hw has to have a woman by his side, but doesn’t know how to treat her…so the women leave after so many years.  It doesn’t matter how much I pray for him to learn, he is stuck on his wheel and the growth hasn’t happened, yet.   However, he did write me a note saying that he was sorry for the way he had treated me and saw that our sons were good humans because of me.
That was huge, this many years later.  Something to be said for that.  I liked him.  I thought to grow and love him and build a life together.  Both people have to want that goal.
So on the topic of men.  What is our karmic relationship with the one we chose?
At some point if there is a lesson we learn it, move on and have a life filled with purpose and joy.  But then, also sometimes we/I get stuck on the energy of a specific man.  There is something about him that just sticks with and to me.  I don’t want anyone else…for a long time.  The energy and connection are deep.  I carry them inside me…through other situations.  That happened to me from a guy in college.  I know we had a connection. And we kept weaving in and out of each others life for many, many years, until finally we had nothing to move forward with.  By then I had children, and for some reason, I didn’t want him in their life.  Although before that I would of tried to integrate us into a family.  There was a moment in time where that could of happened.  I had so much love for him or so I thought.
Wouldn’t it be great if we had a magic ball and could look and see who was going to cross our path and be the “IT” man.  And know that we would be in for a rollercoaster ride in life with this man in either a exhilarating happy way or a shit storm way.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

What are the necessary ingredients for a successful life?

“I think 99 times
and I find nothing.
I stop thinking, swim in silence, and
truth comes to me.”
-       Albert Einstein

What are the necessary ingredients for a successful life?

What are the components for a successful life?  How do we define the word successful?  Why would one even think about those concepts?
Well, truth be told, many people struggle with where they are, what they have and don’t have. 
All across the board of existence: professional life, personal life, spiritual life. 
So here is my take, based on my life….success for me encompasses when I set goals and follow through with them.  What ever they are. 

Being organized with my life, taking care of my finances, my obligations.  And then doing things that make me happy.  My art, going to the gym, doing yoga, eating healthy food and spending time with people that I care about and love.
And then there is this concept…being truthful with myself about my life and what is happening.  This is not always easy.  How do we be truthful with ourselves?  Sometimes we don’t really like the truth.  And there is the problem. 
So I would say a major ingredient in a successful life is being truthful with oneself.  About everything, especially what we want and don’t want.  Sometimes it is easier to start with what we don’t want.  And work from there.  What are my deal breakers?  When we start with a knowing of what doesn’t and won’t work for oneself, it is easier to attract what we do like and want. 
So Truth.  Satya in Hindi.

I think in being truthful it also means that we pay attention to ourself, in a higher sense because the experiences we have affect our bodies.  And if we were listening…to ourself, there would be less ailments and di-ease in the body.  People’s hearts hurt because of wounds that have not healed, experiences that weren’t completely processed or let go of. 
Which leads to being in the moment, being in the Now as Eckhart Tolle says.  

I don’t feel success is about money or status.  It is about how you feel about yourself as you acquire the things that will bring you joy and happiness.  It is the pursuit of life’s dreams…how we are on the way to fulfilling our dreams.
So to fill a bowl with love, truth, joy, discipline, self knowledge, and kindness and mix it up is beginning place for success in life…..