Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground. - Rumi

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Honoring Varnette Honeywood


Dixie Peach
Varnette Honeywood


I learned about Varnette Honeywood many years ago when I worked as a docent at the California African American Museum.  She was an African American artist who depicted scenes of everyday living.  She had a masters from USC and taught art to low income students.  One of my favorites of her work is of girls getting their hair pressed (does anyone still do that?).  One of the things that I loved and enjoyed about her work was the different shades of African American peoples.  From the milky light skinned red haired peoples to the deep dark brown peoples with black hair and everyone in the middle – people described as red, honey, chocolate, all represented in her work.  Her work was colorful, light and deep at the same time.  It reminds me of warm summers in Sacramento at my grand parents house, surrounded by relatives and neighbors.  Warm, friendly, homey – even a little country.
I became aware she passed a few days ago when I went internet searching for an anthology of her work.  Hoping by now a book had been published of all her work.  Instead, I learned something else.  And I was upset, even though I didn’t personally know her.  I felt a kinship with her.  I felt like she spoke to me personally with her art.
I honor Varnette Honeywood in the circle of my family.
She did some great work.  I hope she one days receives the world recognition she deserves.


African Women
arcylic on canvas
collection of Houston and Kinshasha Conwill
1980

1993

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Poetry - virtue, intoxication, life


No Images

She does not know
Her beauty,
She thinks her brown body
Has no glory.

If she could dance
Naked,
Under palm trees
And see her image in the river
She would know.

But there are no palm trees
On the street,
And dish water gives back no images.

     Waring cuney (1906-1976)


Poetry, sweet poetry, it speaks to my soul as colors being added on a canvas,  shapes of clay being moulded,  words forming ideas and imagery.  I love poetry, this one in particular is from a book called Shimmy Shimmy Shimmy Like My Sister Kate (Looking at the Harlem Renaissance through Poems) by Nikki Giovanni. 
I like the title and was thus drawn to the book.  It is filled with
poems by some of the greatest African-American poets: Countee Cullen,  Paul Laurence Dunbar, Langston Hughes,  Claude McKay and many more.  The poets speak of challenges in being of color in this country, the pain, the glory, the humanness of being alive.  The Harlem Renaissance excites me, all of that great writing and art that came out of that period of time.  I would of loved to have lived then. 
What attracts me to poetry is it’s openess to any style or form (haiku’s, stanzas, pentameter, rhyme, rhythm).  There is no wrong way to express an idea. I love spoken word.
Of course making the idea clear is important.  Like any craft it can be worked and reworked to create imagery, symbolism and metaphor that one feels with the heart, sees imaginatively, smells intensely and hears magnificently.  Poetry is like music to me, each word has a meaning and intention and it can make one’s spirit soar to heights of happiness or depths of human despair.  With poetry you know if you like it, the words resonates with you by how you feel about it. 
Baudelaire said it succinctly – Be intoxicated with life – see it in the everyday moments, a beauty, a love, a joy.

Charles Baudelaire
Enivrez-vous (Paris Spleen, 1864)

Il faut être toujours ivre. Tout est là: c'est l'unique question. Pour ne pas sentir l'horrible fardeau du Temps qui brise vos épaules et vous penche vers la terre, il faut vous enivrer sans trêve. 
   Mais de quoi? De vin, de poésie ou de vertu, à votre guise. Mais enivrez-vous. 
   Et si quelquefois, sur les marches d'un palais, sur l'herbe verte d'un fossé, dans la solitude morne de votre chambre, vous vous réveillez, l'ivresse déjà diminuée ou disparue, demandez au vent, à la vague, à l'étoile, à l'oiseau, à l'horloge, à tout ce qui fuit, à tout ce qui gémit, à tout ce qui roule, à tout ce qui chante, à tout ce qui parle, demandez quelle heure il est et le vent, la vague, l'étoile, l'oiseau, l'horloge, vous répondront: "Il est l'heure de s'enivrer! Pour n'être pas les esclaves martyrisés du Temps, enivrez-vous; enivrez-vous sans cesse! De vin, de poésie ou de vertu, à votre guise."

Arthur Symons (1865-1945) translation, as quoted by Eugene O’Neill in Long Day’s Journey into Night:
Be always drunken. Nothing else matters: that is the only question. If you would not feel the horrible burden of Time weighing on your shoulders and crushing you to the earth, be drunken continually.
            Drunken with what? With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will. But be drunken.
            And if sometimes, on the stairs of a palace, or on the green side of a ditch, or in the dreary solitude of your own room, you should awaken and the drunkenness be half or wholly slipped away from you, ask of the wind, or of the wave, or of the star, or of the bird, or of the clock, of whatever flies, or sighs, or rocks, or sings, or speaks, ask what hour it is; and the wind, wave, star, bird, clock, will answer you: "It is the hour to be drunken! Be drunken, if you would not be martyred slaves of Time; be drunken continually! With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will.”
The Kiss
inspired by Rodin
mixed media on canvas panel
4/2011


Saturday, April 9, 2011

Out of the Comfort Zone - A Colorful Idea


Sunny warm skies
actually cold clear skies,
I am projecting for the summer
February 2011
Palo Alto


It’s hard to believe summer is upon us, warm days and nights.
Summer fruits, cookouts,warm balmy evenings, strolls along the beach.  And of course having that perfect little black dress to wear.  I have been in a quandary about my little black dress status.  All the ones I have now have a hole or are worn.
I started looking around, checking all my usual shopping places for something to catch my eye.  At the same time realizing that I have a plethora of colorful summer dresses that haven’t really had their fair share of wear.  And I began to ponder why do I have all these beautifully colored dresses if I have no intention of wearing them. 
Black has been my uniform forever.  Originally it was a black skirt and white blouse, colored tights, black flats, black coat and pearls.  Forever.  My go to since my twenties.  Same for evening the black dress and a medium black heel, pearls.
 I am comfortable in black.  Black and white, black and khaki, black with a splash of pink or green.  It works for me.
The black is like camaflauge.  It hides all the imperfections, it blends in.   Wearing black is a no brainer, keeps it simple not to mention the slimming effects.
But lately, actually since last summer, I don’t want to blend in, I want to immerse myself in bright oranges and fluorescent pink sand voluptuous reds.  Warm colors, warm colors like tropical sunsets and sunrises.  Warm colors that remind me of foods I like:  juicy sweet mangos, papaya, succulent peaches, plump red cherries and luscious raspberries: don’t know why.  I am just being drawn to those colors.
But, I am afraid to step out of my uniform, my comfort zone.
I am going to give myself a challenge.  No new black summer dress, no wearing black this summer.  It isn’t summer yet, but I am going to try.  Of course this new rule will not apply to the gym attire.

Papillon
recycled cans, buttons, acrylic on wood

Monday, April 4, 2011

Artful Inspirations



I came across a magazine about blogging, called Artful Blogging.  I had to buy it.  The words alone made me salivate.  The images are sublimely amazing.  Here are the titles to the sections, also enough to stir anyone out of lethargy.

Words that inspire:

Defining my creative self
No expectations
Finding where I fit in
New beginnings & formed bonds
Opening my eyes & fearing less
Where inspiration lives
Enjoying my cheerful tiny spot in a grand universe
Allowing my creative spirit to soar
Documenting, sharing & words of encouragement
Art challenges galore
Where to begin
Finding my style

Ideas with which to begin the journey, ideas to open the heart, the mind, the spirt, ideas to inspire ephiphanies,
and movement.
It can be scary to open up, it can be scary to take a risk, it can be scary to make changes.  It is the one thing that is certain in this world of ours, things change.  It's easier to go with the flow, rather than fight it.  I used to fight it.  Now I surrender with as much grace as I can.
Meditating Mama
acrylic on wood

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Changes in time


My House
recycled cans, photos on wood


This morning, I put my son on an airplane for the third time this year. Yesterday was all about printing boarding passes and shuttle info and packing and what did he want that last dinner at home for a while to be.
My heart gets heavy when I drop him off.  I want to follow him through the airport, make sure all who come in contact with him know that he is special and treasured by his mother, his family.
Of course I can’t.  Can’t get out of the car, much less make a fuss at the airport.  Crazy place now anyway airports.
While I am intellectually aware of this passage of time as being one of changes, my little bird is trying his wings: that doesn’t make it easier emotionally.  This is my little baby.  My baby boy.
I know I have done the right thing, letting him go off, not fretting in front of him, but I want to.  I guess I want to cry “don’t grow up”!! 
This is probably the most difficult change to have to go through.  Sending my child off to college.  Of course, I dotted all the I’s, crossed all the T’s, to organize and prepare him for this time, as best as anyone could. 
Children fill up the cracks and crevices of our being.  As a mom I am so used to the noise, the physical space, the time and effort that goes into raising a child.  And then he’s gone, the house is empty, and it feels like my heart is going to break, ( intellectually I know it’s not) but I am releasing my man-child into the world to have his own experiences-- separate from me.  
Along with these changes in this time continuum I have to change.  And it’s hard.  I have to stop doing all the laundry, grocery shopping and taking care and pull back and let him do it or not himself.
And that is hard, because of course I want him to do it my way, right? I am the mom after all.
Underneath missing him is wanting to see him do well.  Wanting to see him become a man and move forward in his life.  It’s a weird double edged experience. 

There is a book by Robert Munsch, Love You Forever, about a mother and son.  And the life cycle.  The boy grows and grows and grows until he becomes a man.  A little rhyme runs through it “love you forever, like you for always as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be”. 
Three and eight year old boys
The first days after he has headed back to school are always rough for me. I have to re-find my balance of moving forward in my life and of being a nest without any little birds in it.


Two Young Men
(two little birds heading out into the world)
headed towards their destiny

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

The Jeans - almost there



Finally, I have made it sixty days of eating clean.  Clean, clean, clean.  So I decided to pull out the jeans.  The jeans that I decided to use as a marker to show the progress of my changed eating and working out habits. 
Last time, I couldn’t button any of the buttons.  I was apprehensive about even pulling them out.  So of course I do it before I am going to work(when I shouldn’t, late to work).  A quick what shall I wear today? Oh! I wonder if those jeans fit today. And they did.  At least I could button them up and that was a mitzpah in my eyes.  I have worked hard to get to button up those jeans.
I am a  Levi’s 501 girl.  I like them, I always have.  I like buttoning my jeans.  I like the straight leg cut. Really they are the only jeans I like to wear.  
I have not had coffee, a Red Bull or a diet coke in 60 days.  I lived on a Red Bull before working out.  I liked the “kick”.  I couldn’t work out if I didn’t have that little adrenalin rush.  Well, I sure don’t need a Red Bull anymore.   
Sixty days and counting of making a change in my lifestyle.  It is hard, on days when I am away from my routine.  I was thinking that I was ready for a cheat day.  I can taste the vegan cupcake in my mouth.  Nope, not yet.  I have to reach my goal first. 
My goals is to wear my 501 jeans and a tshirt. My goal is for them to be comfortable and a little loose. 
For this goal, I have forsworn all of my favorite candies, potato chips, fried foods and soy ice cream bars.
And the exercise that goes along with making the dietary changes.  It’s getting easier but it’s still hard.  My new mantra is to trust my body.  It’s making me more comfortable in my skin.
My next marker…….gotta get through each day.  Each day I feel tempted to just forget the whole thing.  What’s one little chocolate.  I am not a cheater, even when no one is watching (and I would know that I wasn't keeping my plan).  Then I remember I want to wear the jeans. And I am getting close.


Butterfly
recycled cans, buttons on wood
2004




Saturday, March 19, 2011

New

I did it.  I moved myself out of my state of stasis and it felt really good.  All of a sudden, ideas flowed forth and it didn't feel like I was forcing. 


Corazon -heart
recycled aluminum cans on wood, acrylic
3/2011

The Magic Of Love

Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!

- Helen Steiner Rice -